We spent the last 6 weeks working on trails and the memorial garden at the National Chavez Foundation, and we are finally done! See, the thing about putting 10 people to work for 8 hours a day is that you will get a whole lot of work done in a short amount of time. We continually finished tasks in less time than expected, giving the site supervisor, MIKE, the constant battle of coming up with things for us to do.
For me, Round One was a mental struggle. With the long days of manual labor, you were left with a whole lot of thinking time. I found myself analyzing the team dynamics way too much. When we first got our team, BLUE 7 was really chummy and seemed to really get along. At camp, we came in 2nd place playing "The Newly Team Game" because we already knew each other so well. We spent time together on the weekends and genuinely had each other's backs. Because we started off on such a positive foot, I really had a hard time accepting our differences when they started to come out.
Our team is full of LARGE personalities and together, we are finding it quite difficult to get along. There is a lot of sarcasm and negativity, and I find myself struggling to maintain sanity at times. There are also a lot of "cliques" or small friend circles which frustrates me. I was so happy when we could all hang out and get along, and I've come to the realization that we were just trekking through the "honeymoon stage."
The positive in this is that it really makes me see how lucky I am at home. I can't believe how much love I feel when I am around my friends and family in Milwaukee. I'm proud to have friends that I can snuggle with, talk about absolutely anything or nothing at all with, and give each other advice that really comes from an honest place. I cannot wait to see these people at home and I'm really counting on it being the boost I need to get back to work. I need to get back into the right mindset so I can embark on my next journey with NCCC.
I get to go home in 3 DAYS!!!! I fly to Milwaukee on December 22nd--where I will see my babies (Sugar, Buddy, and Anna), my parents, and of course, Josh :D I plan to do some really quick Christmas shopping on the 23rd, as well as get my cavity filled : /
Then, I will spend my break with the people I love. Thank you for your support...I apparently need it :)
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